It was getting late
with the warm fuzz
of the wine
well worked into our minds
when the first sign
of the Kingdom of Heaven
occurred
in a back room
with only the paid help
as witnesses
and the quality
of the gift
passing unnoticed
because of our
intoxication.
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Welcome to the blog of Richard Beck, author and professor of psychology at Abilene Christian University (beckr@acu.edu).
The Theology of Faƫrie
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Autobiographical Posts
- On Discoveries in Used Bookstores
- Two Brothers and Texas Rangers
- Visiting and Evolving in Monkey Town
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- A Life With Bibles
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- Morning Prayer at San Buenaventura Mission
- The Halo of Overalls
- Less
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- Subversion and Shame: I Like the Color Pink
- The Bureaucrat
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- Palm Sunday with the Orthodox
- On Maps and Marital Spats
- Get on a Bike...and Go Slow
- Buying a Bible
- Memento Mori
- We Weren't as Good as the Muppets
- Uncle Richard and the Shark
- Growing Up Catholic
- Ghostbusting (Part 1)
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- My Eschatological Dog
- Tex Mex and Depression Era Cuisine
- Aliens at Roswell
On the Principalities and Powers
- Christ and the Powers
- Why I Talk about the Devil So Much
- The Preferential Option for the Poor
- The Political Theology of Les MisƩrables
- Good Enough
- On Anarchism and A**holes
- Christian Anarchism
- A Restless Patriotism
- Wink on Exorcism
- Images of God Against Empire
- A Boredom Revolution
- The Medal of St. Benedict
- Exorcisms are about Economics
- "Scooby-Doo, Where Are You?"
- "A Home for Demons...and the Merchants Weep"
- Tales of the Demonic
- The Ethic of Death: The Policies and Procedures Manual
- "All That Are Here Are Humans"
- Ears of Stone
- The War Prayer
- Letter from a Birmingham Jail
Experimental Theology
- Eucharistic Identity
- Tzimtzum, Cruciformity and Theodicy
- Holiness Among Depraved Christians: Paul's New Form of Moral Flourishing
- Empathic Open Theism
- The Victim Needs No Conversion
- The Hormonal God
- Covenantal Substitutionary Atonement
- The Satanic Church
- Mousetrap
- Easter Shouldn't Be Good News
- The Gospel According to Lady Gaga
- Your God is Too Big
From the Prison Bible Study
- The Philosopher
- God's Unconditional Love
- There is a Balm in Gilead
- In Prison With Ann Voskamp
- To Make the Love of God Credible
- Piss Christ in Prison
- Advent: A Prison Story
- Faithful in Little Things
- The Prayer of Jabez
- The Prayer of Willy Brown
- Those Old Time Gospel Songs
- I'll Fly Away
- Singing and Resistence
- Where the Gospel Matters
- Monday Night Bible Study (A Poem)
- Living in Babylon: Reading Revelation in Prison
- Reading the Beatitudes in Prision
- John 13: A Story from the Prision Study
- The Word
Series/Essays Based on my Research
The Theology of Calvin and Hobbes
The Theology of Peanuts
The Snake Handling Churches of Appalachia
Eccentric Christianity
- Part 1: A Peculiar People
- Part 2: The Eccentric God, Transcendence and the Prophetic Imagination
- Part 3: Welcoming God in the Stranger
- Part 4: Enchantment, the Porous Self and the Spirit
- Part 5: Doubt, Gratitude and an Eccentric Faith
- Part 6: The Eccentric Economy of Love
- Part 7: The Eccentric Kingdom
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Blogging about the Bible
- Unicorns in the Bible
- "Let My People Go!": On Worship, Work and Laziness
- The True Troubler
- Stumbling At Just One Point
- The Faith of Demons
- The Lord Saw That She Was Not Loved
- The Subversion of the Creator God
- Hell On Earth: The Church as the Baptism of Fire and the Holy Spirit
- The Things That Make for Peace
- The Lord of the Flies
- On Preterism, the Second Coming and Hell
- Commitment and Violence: A Reading of the Akedah
- Gain Versus Gift in Ecclesiastes
- Redemption and the Goel
- The Psalms as Liberation Theology
- Control Your Vessel
- Circumcised Ears
- Forgive Us Our Trespasses
- Doing Beautiful Things
- The Most Remarkable Sequence in the Bible
- Targeting the Dove Sellers
- Christus Victor in Galatians
- Devoted to Destruction: Reading Cherem Non-Violently
- The Triumph of the Cross
- The Threshing Floor of Araunah
- Hold Others Above Yourself
- Blessed are the Tricksters
- Adam's First Wife
- I Am a Worm
- Christus Victor in the Lord's Prayer
- Let Them Both Grow Together
- Repent
- Here I Am
- Becoming the Jubilee
- Sermon on the Mount: Study Guide
- Treat Them as a Pagan or Tax Collector
- Going Outside the Camp
- Welcoming Children
- The Song of Lamech and the Song of the Lamb
- The Nephilim
- Shaming Jesus
- Pseudepigrapha and the Christian Witness
- The Exclusion and Inclusion of Eunuchs
- The Second Moses
- The New Manna
- Salvation in the First Sermons of the Church
- "A Bloody Husband"
- Song of the Vineyard
Bonhoeffer's Letters from Prision
Civil Rights History and Race Relations
- The Gospel According to Ta-Nehisi Coates (Six Part Series)
- Bus Ride to Justice: Toward Racial Reconciliation in the Churches of Christ
- Black Heroism and White Sympathy: A Reflection on the Charleston Shooting
- Selma 50th Anniversary
- More Than Three Minutes
- The Passion of White America
- Remembering James Chaney, Michael Schwerner and Andrew Goodman
- Will Campbell
- Sitting in the Pews of Ebeneser Baptist Church
- MLK Bedtime Prayer
- Freedom Rider
- Mountiantop
- Freedom Summer
- Civil Rights Family Trip 1: Memphis
- Civil Rights Family Trip 2: Atlanta
- Civil Rights Family Trip 3: Birmingham
- Civil Rights Family Trip 4: Selma
- Civil Rights Family Trip 5: Montgomery
Hip Christianity
The Charism of the Charismatics
Would Jesus Break a Window?: The Hermeneutics of the Temple Action
Being Church
- Instead of a Coffee Shop How About a Laundromat?
- A Million Boring Little Things
- A Prayer for ISIS
- "The People At Our Church Die A Lot"
- The Angel of Freedom
- Washing Dishes at Freedom Fellowship
- Where David Plays the Tambourine
- On Interruptibility
- Mattering
- This Ritual of Hallowing
- Faith as Honoring
- The Beautiful
- The Sensory Boundary
- The Missional and Apostolic Nature of Holiness
- Open Commuion: Warning!
- The Impurity of Love
- A Community Called Forgiveness
- Love is the Allocation of Our Dying
- Freedom Fellowship
- Wednesday Night Church
- The Hands of Christ
- Barbara, Stanley and Andrea: Thoughts on Love, Training and Social Psychology
- Gerald's Gift
- Wiping the Blood Away
- This Morning Jesus Put On Dark Sunglasses
- The Only Way I Know How to Save the World
- Renunciation
- The Reason We Gather
- Anointing With Oil
- Incarnations of God's Mercy
Exploring Preterism
Scripture and Discernment
- Owning Your Protestantism: We Follow Our Conscience, Not the Bible
- Emotional Intelligence and Sola Scriptura
- Songbooks vs. the Psalms
- Biblical as Sociological Stress Test
- Cookie Cutting the Bible: A Case Study
- Pawn to King 4
- Allowing God to Rage
- Poetry of a Murderer
- On Christian Communion: Killing vs. Sexuality
- Heretics and Disagreement
- Atonement: A Primer
- "The Bible says..."
- The "Yes, but..." Church
- Human Experience and the Bible
- Discernment, Part 1
- Discernment, Part 2
- Rabbinic Hedges
- Fuzzy Logic
Interacting with Good Books
- Christian Political Witness
- The Road
- Powers and Submissions
- City of God
- Playing God
- Torture and Eucharist
- How Much is Enough?
- From Willow Creek to Sacred Heart
- The Catonsville Nine
- Daring Greatly
- On Job (GutiƩrrez)
- The Selfless Way of Christ
- World Upside Down
- Are Christians Hate-Filled Hypocrites?
- Christ and Horrors
- The King Jesus Gospel
- Insurrection
- The Bible Made Impossible
- The Deliverance of God
- To Change the World
- Sexuality and the Christian Body
- I Told Me So
- The Teaching of the Twelve
- Evolving in Monkey Town
- Saved from Sacrifice: A Series
- Darwin's Sacred Cause
- Outliers
- A Secular Age
- The God Who Risks
Moral Psychology
- The Dark Spell the Devil Casts: Refugees and Our Slavery to the Fear of Death
- Philia Over Phobia
- Elizabeth Smart and the Psychology of the Christian Purity Culture
- On Love and the Yuck Factor
- Ethnocentrism and Politics
- Flies, Attention and Morality
- The Banality of Evil
- The Ovens at Buchenwald
- Violence and Traffic Lights
- Defending Individualism
- Guilt and Atonement
- The Varieties of Love and Hate
- The Wicked
- Moral Foundations
- Primum non nocere
- The Moral Emotions
- The Moral Circle, Part 1
- The Moral Circle, Part 2
- Taboo Psychology
- The Morality of Mentality
- Moral Conviction
- Infrahumanization
- Holiness and Moral Grammars
The Purity Psychology of Progressive Christianity
The Theology of Everyday Life
- Self-Esteem Through Shaming
- Let Us Be the Heart Of the Church Rather Than the Amygdala
- Online Debates and Stages of Change
- The Devil on a Wiffle Ball Field
- Incarnational Theology and Mental Illness
- Social Media as Sacrament
- The Impossibility of Calvinistic Psychotherapy
- Hating Pixels
- Dress, Divinity and Dumbfounding
- The Kingdom of God Will Not Be Tweeted
- Tattoos
- The Ethics of :-)
- On Snobbery
- Jokes
- Hypocrisy
- Everything I learned about life I learned coaching tee-ball
- Gossip, Part 1: The Food of the Brain
- Gossip, Part 2: Evolutionary Stable Strategies
- Gossip, Part 3: The Pay it Forward World
- Human Nature
- Welcome
- On Humility
Jesus, You're Making Me Tired: Scarcity and Spiritual Formation
A Progressive Vision of the Benedict Option
George MacDonald
Jesus & the Jolly Roger: The Kingdom of God is Like a Pirate
Alone, Suburban & Sorted
The Theology of Monsters
The Theology of Ugly
Orthodox Iconography
Musings On Faith, Belief, and Doubt
- The Meanings Only Faith Can Reveal
- Pragmatism and Progressive Christianity
- Doubt and Cognitive Rumination
- A/theism and the Transcendent
- Kingdom A/theism
- The Ontological Argument
- Cheap Praise and Costly Praise
- god
- Wired to Suffer
- A New Apologetics
- Orthodox Alexithymia
- High and Low: The Psalms and Suffering
- The Buddhist Phase
- Skilled Christianity
- The Two Families of God
- The Bait and Switch of Contemporary Christianity
- Theodicy and No Country for Old Men
- Doubt: A Diagnosis
- Faith and Modernity
- Faith after "The Cognitive Turn"
- Salvation
- The Gifts of Doubt
- A Beautiful Life
- Is Santa Claus Real?
- The Feeling of Knowing
- Practicing Christianity
- In Praise of Doubt
- Skepticism and Conviction
- Pragmatic Belief
- N-Order Complaint and Need for Cognition
Holiday Musings
- Everything I Learned about Christmas I Learned from TV
- Advent: Learning to Wait
- A Christmas Carol as Resistance Literature: Part 1
- A Christmas Carol as Resistance Literature: Part 2
- It's Still Christmas
- Easter Shouldn't Be Good News
- The Deeper Magic: A Good Friday Meditation
- Palm Sunday with the Orthodox
- Growing Up Catholic: A Lenten Meditation
- The Liturgical Year for Dummies
- "Watching Their Flocks at Night": An Advent Meditation
- Pentecost and Babel
- Epiphany
- Ambivalence about Lent
- On Easter and Astronomy
- Sex Sandals and Advent
- Freud and Valentine's Day
- Existentialism and Halloween
- Halloween Redux: Talking with the Dead
The Offbeat
- Batman and the Joker
- The Theology of Ugly Dolls
- Jesus Would Be a Hufflepuff
- The Moral Example of Captain Jack Sparrow
- Weddings Real, Imagined and Yet to Come
- Michelangelo and Neuroanatomy
- Believing in Bigfoot
- The Kingdom of God as Improv and Flash Mob
- 2012 and the End of the World
- The Polar Express and the Uncanny Valley
- Why the Anti-Christ Is an Idiot
- On Harry Potter and Vampire Movies
God Bless!
From, India
Dr. Beck (or Richard, if it isn't too presumptuous) -- if I were a drinking person, I'd be up for the benefits of "warm fuzzy brain" right about now... But, alas, I am not a drinker. And not because I'm a Church Lady wannabe; too many alcoholics in my past from whom I've seen the worst of all effects of drinking. Hip evangelicals (and modern Methodists alike) hate me -- because they perceive that I'm judging *them* by not celebrating the drink, either in word or deed. Oh well :-)
I do love the poetry, and admire your willingness to put yourself "out there" (or here, as the case happens to be). Creative writing and poetry are such a personal thing; my teen daughter (whom I homeschool, if I haven't mentioned that) is an avid reader, but a reluctant writer. She's becoming more confident in using her "voice" and it is really neat to hear her emerging expressiveness. That, like reading your blog, books, and poetry, has been a gift...the quality of which has not escaped me. Thank you.
Reading Notes:
There has been a lot written about how the first of the signs in the gospel of John was the making of wine at the wedding feast at Cana, with a lot of attention given to how God "kept the party going." This poem reflects on a different aspect of the story, how the sign went unnoticed.
Two reasons for this. First, the sign occurs in the back of the house out of sight. The drinkers are unaware what has happened. They don't know how they have been "saved." Only the servants interacting with Jesus observe the sign. The story also notes that the wine made by Jesus was of excellent quality and should have been served first, when the wedding party was sober. But now, late into the party, this high quality wine will be "wasted" on those who have become drunk. The sign doesn't just save, it's beyond what anyone can appreciate in the midst of drunken revelries.
All this, it seems to me, is a metaphor for grace. About how the signs are right in front of us but we fail, because of our "intoxication", to observe, note, and mark.
Grace as a freely given gift, not as in exchange for theological correctness.
I feel I am stating the obvious. But, I cannot imagine a better picture of the work and posture of Chirst toward us all than this.
Beautiful poetry.
I would have to agree with Patricia's point. Winter Christian POV? I certainly can relate to the "high complaint" with religious experience and (most) doctrine/dogma, and that's no secret among anyone who remotely knows me. The point at which I become annoyed (the "intoxicated" to which you referred, I wonder?), discouraged, and ambivalent about community is the amount of harm others are willing to inflict ("truth-telling") in the name of grace.
In fact, I observed and noted this very situation playing out here, in response to the dish-washing post. Jana felt compelled to post a clarifying statement before the whole conversation devolved into what a bad man you are, Dr. Beck, for being such a presumably patriarchal jerk. Holy crud. Honestly, I would not have assumed that, given all that you had previously written here. But that's how "love" and "grace" goes oftentimes...I would like to close my eyes now and become intoxicated and oblivious to such "grace." Jesus had the right idea. Sigh. If only I had not had such adverse experiences with others who abused alcohol, I would no doubt be a happier imbiber of spirits today. :-)
I mentioned in my previous comment the small detail of my family's choice to homeschool, because I noted in an earlier comment your reference to some troubling conversations with parents from your son's Christian school. I'm waiting for that to get picked on. You really have to be careful how much personal information you divulge on a public blog, because it will set you up for personal attacks, from those whose choices are different from your own. Christian blogs are war zones like this. It is best to stick to high level, analytical, detached analysis of concepts without getting down into earthy real-life matters. That is probably best, because digital friendship has its limitations, realistically-speaking. If only it weren't the case in face-to-face interactions and relationships...
I really quit blaming God long ago, or doubting his lack of grace toward me or the world as a whole. I have my doubts about human beings' ability to grasp the concept of grace and pay it forward. Christians betray their own abuse and misappropriation of the word, because some (evangelicals in particular) throw the word around with such frequency. But those who do not use the word are not necessarily any more enlightened. I've seen generous, merciful, and just people in the Church and outside of its bounds.
I keep thinking of the Prison Ministry posts. How you witnessed such grace by a "stronger" inmate toward his weaker "cellie." I find the same thing with my nursing home Bible fellowship. It is my favorite part of the week, spending time with them. Pure joy. I keep trying to analyze why that set of people and my fellowship with them is so markedly different from so many other interactions in my life? I wonder if you have had similar thoughts and experiences with your Prison Bible Fellowship, and what you attribute this to? Thanks for everything that you've done here on ET.
Superb. Thank you.
Personally, I just LOVE the divergence of opinion on here (and on other similar blogs), in fact, I’d say that it’s the very stuff of Christianity...
All of the most vital theology was born out of dialogue, disagreement and the furnace of conflict.
Surely everyone is allowed an opinion and, as I teach my pupils here at school, if someone disagrees with you – thank them for enabling you to engage with an alternative position.
If we don’t foster unity in diversity we are left with the moribund stasis of stagnant little groups of like-minded folks blandly affirming each other’s propositions.
Give me the offence and challenge of healthy, respectful conflict any day – the only option seems to be to remove oneself to various levels of monastic existence – whether literal or metaphorical.
This, as you will appreciate, is my opinion. It is only mine and I don’t really need anyone else to affirm or confirm it. It will remain my position until I am convinced otherwise...
To be brutally frank, I would suggest to any gentle-soul who might be offended by people having divergent opinions that the internet is the very last place that they ought to be...
With warmest respect from a beautiful, sunny and radiant England J
Wow, I love this. I'm usually not a fan of poetry, but I'm amazed at how few words it took to capture such a profound truth about the grace of God.
On a side note, one of my favorite conversations in Sunday school was regarding Ephesians 5:18: "Do not get drunk on wine...but instead be filled with the Spirit." Somehow, the conversation turned more toward dissipation than drunkenness, toward the idea of how we squander and waste so many of the blessings that God gives us. This poem reminds me of that discussion. How many glimpses of the kingdom do I miss because of my own dissipation?
And what an amazing God, who still gives us these blessings!
Martyn, the divergence and expression of opinion is not the issue that I'm raising. It is the labeling of a person, based on one's judgment of them -- be it correct or incorrect -- as morally bad or good, that I take issue with. More often than not, these judgments cannot possibly be based on a full knowledge of the individual (especially on the Internet / digitally-connected interaction), but arise more from one's own preconceived notions of a given view or behavior. We all have our "lenses" through which we view the world, don't we.
Instead of sharing from our own places of weakness and vulnerability, and being received without personal attack, so that we are enabled to freely and fully hear the other's perspective -- unavoidably derived from their own life experiences, whether they be ones of victory, success, or from failures, fears, and fallenness, the minute personal attacks (you can call it healthy disagreement and engagement with alternative propositions, if you want) begin, most people will become instinctively defensive and withdraw. How is that helpful, except for the one who is the more skillful debater?
You are right, in that we all have the choice whether to subject ourselves to it or not. And the way we treat others in response is a choice, too. Ironically, withdrawing to one's moribund stasis of monastic existence, as you put it, is itself a crime against humanity. Damned if you do, damned if you don't, Martyn. Just sayin'. The sun also shines on our little corner of the earth today. God's gracious gifts are available to all, it would seem...Peace, my divergent-thinking brother?.
"This, as you will appreciate, is my opinion. It is only mine and I don’t really need anyone else to affirm or confirm it. It will remain my position until I am convinced otherwise... "
That is what the best opinions are made of -- personal conviction... not majority consensus.
Well said Martyn.
Well, of course Jesus had to do it quietly in the back. If they'd known about it they would have whined about how it was a terrible vintage with insufficient time to age and not appreciating it for what it was.
Yes, Jim731, you are right. In the end, that is what it comes down to, isn't it. Our opinions, views, and choices can only be shared from a context of where we've been and where we are at any given point in time. "I think", or "I feel" statements might be cheesy to those in-the-know about a particular matter, but at least it conveys the sense that this is what I believe or have experienced. Have I conveyed the impression that I am demanding others to affirm or confirm *my* position? If so, then I am sorry for that misunderstanding. I have been adding too much of my opinion to the conversation? Too sarcastic or cynical? It would be helpful if, as Martyn so elaborately obliged, those who have been offended by me would be straightforward as to specifically the source of my sin. As it is increasingly apparent that I have committed an egregious offense.
Susan, I wasn't responding to anything you said, just to the generality of Martyn's statement. I always appreciate reading your opinion and did not feel that you were being demanding, sarcastic, or cynical.... only sincere and honest (and perhaps sick and tired of hearing all the judgment that comes from the church and elsewhere?). I do sense more than a little bit of frustration on your part, but I also completely understand it as I have experienced it myself. I certainly agree with you that we should never "label" anyone as good or bad, especially since we do not have full knowledge of them -- that was a great point on your part. Go get yourself a smoothie, put your feet up, and relax. As always, peace to you.
Oh, good. Thanks, Jim731. You have hit the nail on the head, in that I am frustrated and weary at the moment. I went just a while ago to pick up my teen daughter from a service project with her honor society group, and didn't have anything to read until she came out...found a Lenten devotional in my purse about the desert (eremos -- Greek def.: uninhabited, lonely, with no human population.) The closing thought was this: "The truth is that we must simply learn to live in the desert, must try to remain oriented toward God as we go on through the misery. The divine presence is not the way out of the desert, it is the way through the desert. Remain attentive to God, stay utterly dependent on God -- this is the lesson of the desert..."
Great!! Coincidentally, I was giving serious consideration to just being an atheist and getting it over with! I'm thinking in reality, yep. Desert. Misery. Constant sorrows. I hope there are no really depressed people reading, because I'm certainly no dang help today. D'oh! Peace be with you, too, Jim731.
Hi Susan, Responding to your comment below "because I'm certainly no dang help today." ...To those who are hurting, "Weep with those who weep, mourn with those who mourn" is much more consoling than a bunch of bright-side God's-in-control hoopla, typical of Summer Christian/extroverted churchianity. The desert is a lonely place, but it seems to have a pretty big population nonetheless. We just don't find each other out except online. Hope you can get some rest, friend.
Hello Susan N.
"I was giving serious consideration to just being an atheist and getting it over with! I'm thinking in reality, yep. Desert. Misery. Constant sorrows. I hope there are no really depressed people reading, because I'm certainly no dang help today."
I get you Susan N.. I've fallen behind the last several weeks, trailing about a half mile behind all of you in this desert. However, I remain within ear-shot of what you're all saying. It continues to help me a lot.
Seriously, I'm wondering if I'm on the verge of becoming (if I'm not already) an Ex-Christian.
Dr. Beck and all of you continue to encourage me. Patricia's really, really cool isn't she?
A few times, I'll catch up to you guys and Patricia's the first person I tap on the shoulder just to say hi.
Just to let you know Susan N. - feelin' you.
Gary Y.
Ummm, was just sharing a thought or two... Always hard without knowing the other folk involved isn't it? Preconceptions and misconceptions will inevitably muddy the water. No offence whatsoever intended...
The more interesting facet of this fable from John 2 is in verse 4 in which Jesus scolds his mother because his time had not come. Very odd. Nevertheless, what follows is allegedly Jesus' first sign which, as the text clearly states , was intended as a display of his glory. This and other signs reinforced a belief and a followership. Miracles leads to belief. Conveniently , miracles have ceased and mankind is expected to have faith in spite of contradicting evidence. Every believer has yearned for a miracle at one time or another yet god is silent. To top it off, god eternally punishes non believers for lack of faith despite the fact he is silent. So, this story from John is not about a subtle sign missed by some . It and the following signs were created to instill belief. Have a great day !
Gary, I'm blushing. I've never been one of the "cool kids."
Rock right on.