"And I was full mery"
Since Chapter 16 Julian has been meditating upon Christ's passion. That prolonged meditation reaches a climax and turning point in Chapter 21.
In Chapter 21 we finally reach the moment of Christ's death. But instead of great sorrow and lament there is a sudden vision of joy:
And I laked after the departing with al my myght and wet have seen the body al ded, but I saw Hym not so. And ryth in the same tyme that methowte, be semyng, the life myght ne lenger lesten and the shewyng of the end behovyd nedis to be, sodenly, I beholdyng in the same Crosse, He chongyd His blissfull chere. The chongyng of His blisful chere chongyd myn, and I was as glad and mery as it was possible. Than browte our Lord merily to my mynde, Where is now ony poynte of the peyne or of thin agreefe? And I was full mery.
Translation:
And I longed after the departing with all my might and would have seen the body all dead, but I saw Him not so. And right in the same time that it seemed to me, by seeming, the life might no longer last and the showing of the end needed necessarily to be, suddenly, I beholding in the same Cross, He changed His blissful expression. The changing of His blissful expression changed mine, and I was as glad and merry as it was possible. Then brought our Lord merrily to my mind, "Where is now any point of the pain or of your grief?" And I was full merry.
I understode that we be now, in our Lords menyng, in His Crosse with Hym in our peynys and our passion, deyng. And we wilfully abydyng in the same Cross with His helpe and His grace into the last poynte, sodenly He shall change His chere to us, and we shal be with Hym in Hevyn. Betwix that one and that other shal be no tyme, and than shal al be browte to joy, and so mente He in this shewyng, Where is now ony poynt of thy peyne or thyn agreefe? And we shal be full blissid.
I understood that we are now, in our Lord's meaning, on His Cross with Him in our pains and our passion, dying. And if we willingly abide in the same Cross with His help and His grace until the last point, suddenly He shall change His appearance toward us, and we shall be with Him in Heaven.
Between that one and that other shall be no passage of time, and then shall all be brought to joy. And so meant He in this showing, “Where is now any point of your pain or your grief?” And we shall be fully blissful.
Stepping back, this showing will prove pivotal for Julian’s reflections going forward. As Julian wrestles with the darkness of the world—and her world was very dark, due to both suffering and sin—this sudden vision of joy in heaven allows her to claim, “All shall be well” in the end. As Christ asks Julian, “Where is now any point of your pain or your grief?” For in heaven, “we shall be fully blissful.” And this vision makes Julian “full merry.”
The thing I want to underline here is how Julian’s famous “all shall be well” is an expression of eschatological hope. It flows out of this vision of the bliss of heaven. And it’s here, I think, where many modern readers of Julian experience a pinch. Specifically, I think many modern readers of Julian, especially progressive readers, are not convinced that the joys and bliss of heaven are sufficient to console us in the face of the pains, sufferings, and griefs of life.
And yet, it is precisely this eschatological consolation and hope that undergirds Julian’s “all shall be well” optimism.

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